Friendship

Okay so I'm normally not the type to be passive aggressive, and I'm normally not the type to write/say anything when I'm upset that is permanent. I might tell a friend or two while venting but I will really think it over before I say or print anything, if at all. I want feedback on this people. I'm done sitting by and wondering and assuming and never knowing and just trying to get over it.

What does friendship mean?? How do you know if you have a good friend(s)?? It is EXTREMELY upsetting when you find out that some of your closest friends don't even support one of your biggest passions! Come on people what is the deal? If you go somewhere else for your business, when you never even discussed it with me how do I not take that personally?? Now if you had spoken to me about it and decided otherwise due to price, scheduling, taste, or whatever else, that is more understandable to me then never even finding out in the first place what I can do for you. I have a lot more ability than people think. I didn't just go out there and buy $5,ooo of equipment for FUN!! But when you have a "business" and I go to your first and foremost when I may be able to get it cheaper somewhere else but you need the money more than the someone else I know, I consider that friendship. Is that not right? If you just want studio pictures instead of location...hey that's a reason I wouldn't take personal! But atleast be upfront with me so I know instead of getting smacked in the face with this information and not know how to take it or what to think about it or even how to handle it for that matter! There are LOTS of people in my life I don't think support me as a photographer, maybe they think I'm too ameteur or it's just not their taste or they just don't think I'm good enough but please judge me on that after you have had a freaking consultation!! Look at all my work, look at the different options that I offer and then dismiss me. That hurts less than when it seems you just have no faith in me at all and don't even consider me as an option.

So now that you have an idea about what I'm upset about let me know what you think? Should friends support one another in things like that? If you know someone who is a house builder do you go to them to build your house or do you go to a complete stranger who's work you don't know and have them build your house? If you have a friend who makes wedding cakes and you're getting married do you ask them or do you find one somewhere else? In all my life it's always been about who you know yet it seems the majority of my clients are either people I don't know who have found me, or people that know me but not necessarily my best friends.

Now for those of you that are my best friends that I have done photography for obviously you can exclude yourself from that last statement.

Thoughts???? Be honest please, I would not be asking if I did not want to know the answer. Don't be afraid to tell me the truth. If your friend asked if they had bad breath and they did, wouldn't you tell them? Hopefully. And if you were honest and told her, would she be mad at you? Probably not. So I'm asking and I want you to be honest and I WON'T be mad.